I will never wanted to see her again - she has hurt me deeply....very deeply...my heart is so painful, just now while i am at her house packing all my stuff, i wanted to cry... my eyes are red... yet i still can't see her...i called her and she hang my call....call her several times and she hang up again & again..... i know no hope to heal this relationship back le....
When i drive my car home....i cry out loud in my car....i am very sad...very down.....almost got the intention to commit sucide - drive almost 135kmph on the high way...feel like killing myself and everything is gone....i am gone too.....then i got no more pain...no more hurt... and my heart will just stopped....i got this intention but i dare not.... i just wanted to quickly reach home and start writing in this blog.... Maybe after that i might end my life one day.... i know from now on is a terrible recover to start all over again....
Now having bad headache maybe coz i have waited at lobby for 6 hours and keep smoking & smoking.... feel like falling down now.... how god? is this consider end of this relationship... God - is everything is over??? How am i gonna stand up again.....we see each other everyday...sleep together almost everyday...and now...how am i going to get use to it.....
haiz..... pain ah~~my heart very pain ah~~~ who can i talk to???
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